whats life for...

2012-02-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

awww...

2012-02-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

every women's dream bag~ *drools*

this beauty costed around rm35000 years back,

and i was already calculating how much should i earn in the future to actually afford the darn bag!

now it cost rm65000 =='

and it is not even the ostrich skin one,

the ostrich skin one cost rm110000!!!!! *faints*

WTH!

how am i gonna afford my dream bag!!!

2012-02-07T18:22:00.001+08:00

Dear? Can you dont say that youre not perfect?

I'm not perfect and i dont need someone perfect.

*smiles*

2012-02-07T13:51:00.002+08:00

$1150

mew mew?~...miao~

2012-02-06T15:45:00.002+08:00

perfect one for valentines to have some fun with the loved one ^~^

2012-02-06T15:37:00.001+08:00

i love this~

2012-02-05T11:05:00.003+08:00

I think i have to go into the ward again...

These few months after getting out from the ward,

I dont find my heart healing faster.

Maybe it needs special care and full attention from the professionals.

Someone who understands the pain and cares about it.

Or maybe someone who wants to care about it.

I've tried to understand him on his position by raising up few examples that i can relate to me, myself.

I have 3 good guy friends that i can really talk to without feeling awkward.

One of them even know my deepest secret which even my bf dont know yet.

I kept thinking and thinking,

imagining the whole story with different cast in it.

what if..

and what if...

so many what IFs popped up.

I really wanna understand his position, i would never wanna make him feel bad.

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But after thinking and thinking,

trying to relate to my few guy friends,

i suddenly realized,

These guys are definitely more than just my friends, why am i comparing?

he asked me: " If i somehow dislike your bestfriend, i'll try to like him/her right? "

So, is she your bestfriend?

Then i started finding examples(guys from my class) that i can relate to,

HA! found one.

I kept thinking and thinking and thinking about it, wanna be rational.

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IF this really happens, i will definitely not do the same like what he did.

IF he(classmate) is just a random friend, why should i even care so much?

Why would i even ask my bf to accept that? when i actually started everything.

Why would i even ask my bf to like him? when he is suffering inside.

Why would i even ask my bf to let it go, and meanwhile still talk to him(classmate)?

when i can choose not to talk to him to make my bf feel better?

he(classmate) is just a friend, so who cares?

Why would i even ask my bf to try to forget about it or let it go, and meanwhile sit somewhere around him(classmate) in class?

when i know that he might not feel comfortable and happy seeing me doing that?

Why would i tell my bf that i talked to him(classmate), and asked him where he got his nickname from?

when i know that he(classmate) is the last person my bf would wanna talk about?

Why would i tell my bf: I've been avoiding him lately, but he is still my friend...

when i know that i shouldnt have brought that up knowing that bf might feel bad, being stucked in between, meanwhile struggling with his own feelings?

Action speaks louder than words.

I think my random friend is not as important as my other half's feelings,

when you have a second doubt,

it means you do not even care about your other half's feelings. Not at all.

I can say this with assurance that i will never do what my bf did.

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I wanna say that, it is very selfish for you to do this.

You havent been wanting to care about my feelings all the while.

You never even care about thinking, how if this happens on your side? me doing this to you?

You care about your friend more than my feelings.

2012-02-04T16:43:00.003+08:00

A boy was following a girl..

Girl: why are you following me?

Boy: You are very pretty and i think i'm in love with you...

Girl: But you havent met my friend, she is much prettier and hotter than me, and is right behind you.

*boy looks back*

Boy: But, there is no one.

Girl: If you really loved me, you wouldnt have looked behind.......

Friend posted this and i find this quite interesting,

so girls, please be wise and choose properly!

2012-02-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

i like the last pic..dont think its even possible in real life..

2012-01-31T18:25:00.003+08:00

its back again...

cant even finish the biscuits i brought for breakfast but i forced myself to eat it all up,

didnt take lunch,

didnt nap earlier,

dont even feel like taking dinner...

the 'size' is smaller than it is suppose to be during this period,

suppose to have massive cow's appetite but didnt feel like eating throughout the week..

loosing the appetite i use to have =c

2012-01-31T00:39:00.001+08:00

guys out there, who are still studying.

appreaciate the one next to you,

because she loves you when you have...

no car,

no house,

and no career ^~^

2012-01-26T22:35:00.001+08:00

daddy brought up the inner fear in me =c

Dont marry that person if you cant love that person forever or at least be loyal to that person...

Knowing that, that person gave up other better options she has, gave up her youth and beauty...

Its worthless when the other dont appreaciate it.

2012-01-12T21:42:00.003+08:00

2012-01-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

ITS NOT HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU, ITS JUST HARD TO FIND SOMEONE WHO REALLY MEANS IT... -ANONYMOUS-

2012-01-06T23:14:00.003+08:00

my 2012 new year resolutions:

- save a lot of money for the future

-(to be continued)

there is this designer bag sale going on in sunway resort tomorrow...

was tempted for a moment but i told myself to save money =c so how?!

told mummy about it earlier, she said:" why get a bag and stare at it? save it and go for holidays instead! Besides, when you are an auditor, you dont have to go for this kinda sale! Dont have to get an outdated/off season one...get yourself the new arrival on the rack!"

What mummy said, actually awaken my mind! yes, i will work hard for it ^~^ *continues doing F7*

2012-01-04T22:44:00.001+08:00

2012-01-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

2011-12-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

the best thing that have happened to me in year 2011(and perhaps for more years ahead):

getting to know the ONE and having him as my part time lover and long time friend *smiles*

love isnt about finding the perfect person, it is finding the imperfect person and seeing how perfect they are..

2011-12-30T13:43:00.001+08:00

sometimes i look at you and stone...

its because i miss you even when i'm with you...*smiles*

miao~ miao~ *manjas*

2011-12-30T13:27:00.002+08:00

saw this little old couple in bali,

the husband held his wife tightly,

they walked down the stairs together,

step-by-step..

i wonder how many couples can still love each other,

when they are,

old and bald,

fat and needs a tongkat...

i believe the man was once a charming dude with muscles and his wife was once a pretty and hot lady in bikini,

we should know that pretty things never last forever,

only the beauty inside that counts *smiles*

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btw, in our country, its quite rare to see old couples holding each other walking side by side...

i wonder is it that tough to do so?

2011-12-25T00:35:00.003+08:00

merry christmas ^~^

2011-12-19T13:02:00.001+08:00

off to bali~ i think i'll miss the one back here, wont be able to say goodnight to him everynight...

2011-12-17T23:02:00.001+08:00

look at the size of the hips, arms, eyes and face =='

2011-12-16T00:16:00.005+08:00

eventhough i had 3 cakes,

i did not make a wish eventhough everyone asked me to..

didnt wanna be greedy..

because i used up my 2011 birthday wish already!

in febuary..

kinda funny because i pre-use it first?

oh well, at least my wish did came true *smiles*

he is right next to me now *smiles*

2011-12-15T21:23:00.002+08:00

*smiles*

shopped a lot today! (oh well, not really in quantity..its the darn killing price that made me think its alot ==')

never thought i'll get a pair of leather biker chick jeans in malaysia!

i feel so cool and sexy now ^~^

2011-12-13T01:44:00.001+08:00

This bag cost a whooping $2750 which is...*converting* rm8250 =='

i'll still love you eventhough youre not prada ^~^

2011-12-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

Love is like a cough. You can never hide it. Dont try, you'll look funny holding a cough.

HAHA!

2011-11-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

My head hurts so badly now,

i guess youre still on your way back because my phone is still quiet =D

I dont know how to express myself now.

You were there when i was weak.

Thank you for washing my bowl,

Thank you for washing my cup,

Thank you for the cheese crackers,

Thank you for drying my hair,

Thank you for not waking me up when i'm deadly tired,

And thank you for drying my tears using your 'chow babi' shirt which i cant smell because my nose was blocked..

Thank you for staying with me till 11.

Thank you darling. I love you. *hugs*...*tears again*

2011-11-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

is it true?..

2011-11-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

if forever really exist..

2011-11-22T23:01:00.004+08:00

A good boyfriend must haves:

-randomly feeds you his prawn and sotong, terpenyek and egg

-grabs your hands and put them into his tummy when you're cold

-let you play with his 'hormones'

-uses his T to wipe your specs

-let you bite his arm eventhough it hurts so badly

-offer you his T, let you wipe your mouth

-un-bone your fish

-un-shell your prawn

-crack your crab like a man

-walks to your car every morn, and walk you back to your car everyday

-stand infront of the toilet to accompany you when its so dark in there, and call his friend and asshole when he woooo-ed

-gets you a T that is seethrough so that he can 'see' =D HAHA!

-calls you little dear, little darling or baby girl

-treats you like a kid eventhogh when he himself is one

-drives to your house just to spend some time with you eventhough its so darn far

-feels bad squeezing your ass, then appologize

-'elephant' you when you feel sad/emo/down/stoned...(practically always)

-boob stare and fail each time

-makes you breakfast and turn up late for college like a boss

-hold your hands all the time

-hugs you generously

-gives the cute sad face when you emo, and need to be comforted by you after that

-likes to read picturenary in the library

-feels shy and paiseh telling you his little 'secrets'

-share his dude's stories

-let you watch american pie (obscene movie)

-tickles your weak spot (which is darn ticklish)

-turns into a cute red nose reindeer when he is about to tear

-manjas you everywhere and feels bad

-*uummm* you like a baby

-take his own sweet time picking ginger out of his food, picking tiny chili padis, and pour see-yau into his food

-likes eating spicy food and never gives up eating evernthough he'll look like as if he got slapped by someone 100 times (red faced)

-knows how to cook (which i've never once tasted before)

-makes 15 paper plasters incase you need it

2011-11-21T23:58:00.008+08:00

darn =='

i see...koreans =D

kawaiineh!

alamak =='

gonna go off now! will add more stuff soon =D

2011-11-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

awww....observe the 4th pic ^~^

2011-11-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

2011-11-16T23:45:00.001+08:00

2011-11-15T23:11:00.003+08:00

When i was in highschool,

a teenager,

i always think,

what am i gonna do if the world ends tomorrow?

what if i'm gonna leave the world tomorrow?

my answer was always the same...

buy loads of branded stuff, wear it, and die =='

but now as i grow,

i'll choose to spend time with my loved ones,

hug them,

and tell them how much i love them,

eventhough i dont really express myself always ^~^

because when i leave the world,

the only thing that follows me,

are my memories

2011-11-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

kawaii neh!

2011-11-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

Went for badminton in the morning,

mamak,

facebook,

fashion blogging,

then HAHA! i was so free, out of curiosity, why some otaku/guys love it so much so i googled HENTAI,

and clicked on one of the link.

To be honest, i was really curious how is it like because i've never in my life visited one of these kinda website before...

and i was soooooo disappointed!!

felt disgusted too =='

that was the totally opposite of what is sex in my little mind =='

shouldnt it be clean and wonderful?

isnt it a gifted thing to do with your other half?

shouldnt it be done with your life long partner?

how can it be with random person like between aunt and nephew?!! *faints*

seriously, i dont know how to express myself right now!

how can it be so 'dirty' looking?!

i kinda stopped half way because i cant take it =='

AAAAHHHHH!

AAAAAAAHHH!

*speechless*

AAAAAHHH!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHH!!

okay...

better stop it..

HAHAHA ^~^

*** should i attach a photo along with this post?

2011-11-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

^~^

2011-11-11T20:08:00.001+08:00

2011-11-11T00:22:00.005+08:00

I'd rather argue with you, than kissing someone else...

thank you for removing the bones in my fish darling ^~^

2011-11-07T17:29:00.001+08:00

*hugs* thanks for the lift!

2011-11-07T17:24:00.002+08:00

true.

2011-11-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

the main point of this post is not the meaning behind it....

ITS THE MAN'S BEARD ^~^ so kiut!

2011-11-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

in my eyes, you are always cute ^~^

2011-11-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

I still love you even how hurt i am..

2011-11-03T23:29:00.001+08:00

the main thing here is...

not the 'dialogue'...

but...

HAHAHAHAHA! his hair look like your's!

^~^

2011-11-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

when a girl gets jealous, let it be..

because if she doesnt,

its either she is keeping everything to herself, not telling you, suffering inside..

or..

she dont love you anymore...

2011-11-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'll get you this darling ^~^

2011-11-01T21:18:00.003+08:00

i've always wanted to tell you that dear..

2011-11-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

2011-11-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

foooooooood

2011-10-31T22:54:00.005+08:00

pay for the price of the cake and get a cup of coffe FREE

RM6.50 with a cup of coffee!

RM4 very money worthy indeed ^~^

RM15.90

(look at the amount they give)

thumbs up!

RM14.90

BBQ chicken...yummy!

2011-10-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

hi charming!

2011-10-29T00:41:00.002+08:00

everytime when someone hurts you,

its like forcing a nail into your heart,

then when that someone appologize,

the nail is removed,

but...

what left behind is a heart with a hole in it...

2011-10-29T00:15:00.002+08:00

when your heart feels so uncomfortable you feel like digging it out and put it aside so that you can breathe

2011-10-28T01:11:00.001+08:00

when SORRY is meaningless and dont work anymore

2011-10-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

autumn cleaning! 2 large bags and a small one...but most importantly is, more to come =='

2011-10-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

I dont know when are you gonna see this post but....

yeah i'm missing you now, this moment <3

2011-10-25T22:17:00.003+08:00

boy: I'm not tall and I dont have the best body..

girl: I dont need a model.

boy: I'm not handsome nor good looking..

girl: I dont need an angel.

boy: I dont know how to cook..

girl: I dont need a chef.

boy: I'm not clever..

girl: I dont need a genius.

boy: I cant carry heavy stuff..

girl: I dont need a maid.

boy: Then...what do you need?

girl: I only need you, do you get me?

2011-10-23T21:35:00.001+08:00

2011-10-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

awww...*heart meltz*

2011-10-22T23:41:00.002+08:00

i feel like poking your ass when you sleep ^~^ *pokes*

2011-10-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

*pushes*

2011-10-22T23:39:00.001+08:00

i'll wait for it!

2011-10-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

lets graduate together again next time <3

2011-10-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

2011-10-09T22:27:00.001+08:00

2011-10-03T23:39:00.003+08:00

I thought of it...

spent quite some time thinking,

what made me randomly tear when i look at you sometimes...

aha!

its not because i'm sad..

its not because i'm disappointed..

there isnt a reason behind it actually,

its just that when i look at you using my heart,

it melts..

and when i look at you using my eyes,

it tears ^~^

I love you <3

2011-09-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

I guess we should really appreaciate what we have aroumd us now...

An uncle who went to the trip with us last year, to thailand, just passed away...

There wasnt any sign of sickness before he 'left'...

R.I.P =c

2011-09-17T00:11:00.002+08:00

Its not that i'm afraid to die, its that if i die, I'm afraid no one will love you the way I do..

2011-09-13T22:41:00.004+08:00

Last night i looked up at the stars

and matched each one with a reason why i love you,

I was doing great but then,

I ran out of stars ^~^

love ^~^

2011-09-09T00:35:00.006+08:00

haha! your hair was so darn cute!

sexy litle bunnies <3

bunny number 1...bunny number 2...*still counting* aha! bunny number 3! *looks at the whilte furry little thingy in the cage*

2011-09-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

2011-09-04T01:35:00.004+08:00

Being jealous is because you love,

Being angry is because you care,

Day dreaming is because your heart misses someone,

Being sad is because you dont wanna loose that someone ^~^

My dear, meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control...

Everything was so perfect, except for the fact that you couldnt make it for the night ^~^

103th day

2011-09-02T21:43:00.007+08:00

look at his full-of-hope face *pickles*

wait till you see this

HAHA! failed ^~^ muaha! muahahaha! *evil snigger*

after a half and hour walk

1st shot

i think i did a great job pretending the camera was'nt there =D

2nd shot

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TADAH! wow =D looks so darn hot and cute ^~^

thank you for: ~the pineapple biscuits

~walking under the hot sun

~putting on your specs (i know you dont like it =c)

~and.....the BACTERIA! heehee!

**A reply to the message there >>>>> *kisses*

2011-08-28T00:13:00.001+08:00

Once i said that those who love you wont make you tear...

but,

i disagree on that now =D

because missing someone you love make you tear ^~^

HAHA! yeah i'm smearing right now *smiling and tearing*

2011-08-27T23:27:00.003+08:00

Doing nothing with the one you love is already doing something ^~^

I hope i could always spend a day or half with you...

2011-08-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

cone pizza craze ^~^

2011-08-25T22:15:00.012+08:00

last wed's turkey ham & roti bawang =='

not nice meh? *grabs the beefdog*

AAAAMmmm......

3rd

2011-08-23T19:44:00.005+08:00

There is this saying...

When you look forward on something,

Time seem to fly in the speed of light =D

Yeah, i believe in that because i look forward to see you everyday,

and walaaah! its the 3rd month already ^~^

When i first saw you, you took my breath away.

When you first talked to me, I couldnt think.

When you asked me out, I couldnt respond.

When you touched me, I got shivers all throughout my body.

And when we first kissed, I flew away in my dreams...

If someone ask me to use a word to represent each of the 3 months we've been through,

I would say,

I..

LOVE...

YOU...

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HAHA! 3 words =D

I guess, I just love being loved by you *smiles*

2011-08-22T16:04:00.003+08:00

PASSED!

mummy bought 4 doughnuts as a 'reward' hehe! (she knows i like doughnuts)

eating them while computer-ing,

thousands of sugars coating my lips~ aaah~ i feel greatful ^~^

MUAHA! pooh is still pushing!

muaha!

2011-08-20T21:43:00.004+08:00

1st wierd dream:

got molested by XXXXXX =='

stupid dream..

2nd wierd dream:

well, its not a bad dream but hah!

its something i know you'll never do!

you'll never XXXXXX XXXX XXXXXXXX XXXXXX!

muaha =D

but things happen, so it might happen and i'm eagerly waiting for it ^~^

*add on: and you'll never XXX X XXXX XXX XXXXXXX XXXXXXXX =D

17th aug

2011-08-17T21:16:00.006+08:00

87th.

Quality time spent with the precious one, created moments i'll never forget..

The moments and the 'one' will be treasured by me definitely ^~^

yeah, thats for sure *hugs*

One day it finally came true, the special someone that i loved, loved me too, and that special someone was you...

2011-08-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

2 friends mentioned the word forever at the msn status,

well,

2 couples i know just broke up,

i guess forever doesnt sound realistic?

There are only 2 times i wanna be with you....Now and Forever..

Since forever doesnt really exist, then..

HAHA! i'll treasure the moment now then ^~^

2011-08-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

I <3 YOU POOH

2011-08-11T01:07:00.001+08:00

Another simple yet special day =D

HAHA~ *shy*

2011-08-09T23:03:00.001+08:00

2011-08-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

who wants to be independant when you know you'll always have someone to depend on? ^~^

2011-08-08T21:53:00.003+08:00

Guy - can i confess something?

Girl - sure!

Guy - You've the prettiest smile i've ever seen..

Girl - can i confess something as well?

Guy - yeah?

Girl - This smile only exist because of you <3

** posted by a friend on facebook

2011-08-07T16:48:00.001+08:00

Sometimes cute things do come in a pair ^~^

2011-08-06T22:26:00.001+08:00

When you see a falling star tonight, make a wish, it'll come true because i wished and i found you.

piggy quote

2011-08-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

If you love someone, put their name in a circle not a heart because hearts can break but circles go on forever ^~^

** harry sanders..HAHA!

piggy quote

2011-08-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

They say you only fall in love once, but that cant be true...Everytime i look at you, I fall in love all over again...

pooh pooh

2011-08-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

If you live to be 100, I hope i live to be 100 minus 1 day, so i never have to live without you ~pooh bear~

bweehee

2011-08-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

An awesome day filled with:~~

~ funny hunny *trying to rhyme*

~ fake cupcake ( its so pretty that they thought its fake, not edible~ ) *still rhyming*

~ loads of hugs

~ chicken and 'fishgetarian' ramli burger

~ and *coughs coughs coughs*

eventhough the day started a little wierd**, at least it ended well ^~^

**woke up an hour late, smooth traffic, pms and the most important part was that someone hopped into my car to pass me hunny and cupcake!

...

2011-08-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Dont cry for the one you love, just remember the one who loves you wont make you cry...

HAHA! cute!

2011-07-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

even cartoon knows about it...HAHA! =D

stone face

2011-07-30T15:40:00.003+08:00

Many people love happy ending, but i dont, because eventually, it comes to an end =c

I prefer something that last forever ^~^

impromptu!

2011-07-26T22:44:00.003+08:00

HAHA!

just had this feeling and thought of doing 2 things:

1) jump on his back, let him carry me

2) hug him tightly and make sure the duration is long enough =D

whats life for...

foooooooood

love ^~^

103th day

3rd

muaha!

17th aug

piggy quote

piggy quote

pooh pooh

bweehee

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HAHA! cute!

*stone face*

impromptu!

stone face